Friday, November 29, 2013

Happy Birthday, Brother!


I grew up the middle of five kids, but I haven't enjoyed that status for a very long time. My oldest brother, Steve, has been in a mental hospital since I was eleven, and my older sister has been impossibly angry as long as I can remember. Then there was me. The brother born after me, Andy, drowned when he was three, and Michael is the youngest. This story is about him.

He was born when I was seven, just thirteen months after Andy, and just before our dad went to prison, robbing Michael of even one decent father-son memory. His childhood, like mine, can be summed up in tragedy and loss and, though he was too young to remember most of it, I know it greatly shaped his life. The year following Andy's death, as my mom began to surface from her grieving, she asked my sister and me who in the world had been taking care of Michael. Though my sister deserves a lot of credit for standing in the gap, the answer was that Mom had been. So, though she was taking care of his physical needs, Michael was without the emotional presence of our mother for quite some time. It was a hard time for all of us.

Michael adapted and he and I became good friends--except when he played in my makeup and wrote on the mirror with my Bonne Bell lip gloss. He and I would look through my yearbooks as he told me which of the girls from my class were foxes and which were hounds. I put him in ridiculous poses and used Mom's Polaroid to snap pictures--some of which I'm now finding in Mom's old attic boxes. He was a good kid, very sweet and smart as a whip. Mom enrolled him in a Montessori school and he passed all the other kids up, which challenged the teachers to keep him occupied. He and I always got along but I moved away for a foreign exchange program in high school, and we started to grow apart after that.

Our whole family went their separate ways to some extent. Mom remarried (which ended in divorce) while Michael was the last one living at home. Later, Mom met the love of her life and tried to make a long distance relationship work. Michael was coming of age and was doing the types of things any young man left alone to rule the roost on weekends would do. As a result, my Christian lifestyle wasn't appealing to him in the least and, though he graciously listened to the simple presentation of the gospel John and I gave him during our first year as Christians, he clearly had a lot more fun to attend to than we could offer. I didn't see much of him but prayed for him often.

Since we moved to Texas, the stress of my mother's situation and the thread of dysfunction already running through our family have taxed my relationship with Michael. We hadn't seen each other for almost a year when he called John earlier this month for a meeting where he expressed his desire to be reunited with our family. He said he and his new wife had been going to church for the past six months, and he wanted John to baptize him. Monday night we went to the pool at the rec center where John works, and God gave my brother back to me. He said he was sorry for losing a year, and so am I, but I prefer to look at what I gained--a brother, a sister-in-law, and two and a half cousins. (They are expecting their third child.)

I've used words to convey this story to you, but words cannot express the joy in my heart, knowing my brother and I will spend an eternity together in the presence of God. I love you, Michael. Happy birthday for turning thirty-five today, and happy birthday for being born again last week.


21 comments:

  1. Samantha, so pleased for your brother. That's a beautiful story and such a blessing.

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  2. Our God is SO amazing! I bet you didn't see this one coming! So excited for you and Michael and his family! Thank you for sharing this!

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  3. This is a beautiful ending to a sad story!

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  4. can't love this enough

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  5. I knew when I saw ur blog I would tear up, but I cannot stop crying! Love this

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  6. Oh my goodness, this is so amazing!!! I'm so moved by this! Congrats to all of you, and I'm so very happy for all of you!

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  7. Awesome! Such an inspiring story.

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  8. Wow! This is so great to hear.

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  9. This makes my heart happy! Thank you for sharing!

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  10. Awesome! Thanks for sharing:)

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  11. Wow! What joy! Tears fill my eyes reading this story of redemption for Michael! Praise God!

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  12. Samantha:
    What a great story of blessings arising from among such emotional and psychological tragedy! May God bless your new relationship with Michael and may both of you remain faithful to God to the end.
    In Him,

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  13. Praise God for His awesome power! So glad that all of the grief and pain of this life are made perfect through Him. Blessings to you all...

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  14. Sweet story of reconciliation, Sam! Thanks for sharing it! Praying blessings over Michael in his new walk with Christ!

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  15. I read your account of your brother's conversion "through the tears"! What a gifted writer & what a joyful
    Experience for all of you
    Samantha

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  16. WOW, WOW, WOW! Isn’t it amazing how Satan’s plans unravel when even one of a household surrenders to God! He is truly powerless in the shining light of God’s grace. His schemes are but a flimsy mirage when compared to the great riches God offers. I remember consoling you and John in the early days at Natchez Trace as you both mourned the state of your families. What God has done through your relentless pursuit of Him and His ways1 I’m proud and honored to serve in the Lord’s army with you and your blessed family. It wonderful to see what God does with our simple, feeble efforts. I’m eager to see what God does in that rec center too!

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  17. I read your blog and it made me cry! Wow, God never ceases to amaze me! What a painful story you had growing up and what an impact you and John have had on your family with your mother’s baptism and now your brother! I’m thrilled for you and to have your brother back into your life! Yay! Praise God! What a story! Thanks so much for sharing this!

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